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#1 Damon

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Posted 08 January 2016 - 01:28 AM

hi friends, how's everyone doing?

 

i'm ok. just trying to catch up on life or whatever i can call it. i recently graduated college, stated that on my status update. now i'm supposed to go look for a job or something, but tbh i'm lost and confused because i've been in school my whole life and it feels as if i should go back to school (grad school, but that shits expensive), so... i'm probably not going to do that.

 

this is more of a rant and again to see how you all are doing, also what are you all up to these days?

 

anything new in your lives? or at least things i don't know about? which could be just about anything!



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Posted 08 January 2016 - 01:30 AM

I'm still a loser with no life, just obsessing over whatever my newest game is I'm playing lol. I should probably stop being afraid of everything and do something with my life.

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Posted 08 January 2016 - 01:35 AM

you and me both



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Posted 08 January 2016 - 02:13 AM

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Miss you Damon <3

So itt we just rant about our lives, yeah?

I quit my job today. I would have been there four years at the end of this month (ya know, overlooking the whole Alaska thing) but the owners are horrible people and actually crazy so I had to leave. Kind of a big deal because I don't know if I've ever had something in my life for that long. I've never even attended the same school for 4 years. Plus all my best friends work there and I'm leaving them behind. It's kind of a big deal for me and feels really weird. I got a job at like our biggest rival of a coffee shop too so I feel like a traitor. I'm also copping a job with the Teamsters Local 631, setting up and tearing down conventions and shit. Which is pretty dope but not consistent work, hence me still slinging coffee.
I'm also staying at my parents' house currently until I move again at the end of the month. I'm currently "living" with one of my old coworkers - but I'm there so rarely it's more like really expensive storage. It's sorta in the hood, I had a crazy homeless lady try attacking me with a belt outside my home a couple weeks ago and haven't been home much since. I'm moving in with an old friend at the end of this month, and it'll be a lot better of a situation. It's an actual house, with a back yard and a garage and not having to share walls with people, which is a huge step up from living in an apartment all last year and living in a condo currently. Plus it's like 2 minutes from my new job and has easy freeway access. A lot further from the university than my condo rn but if it means not being in the ghetto then I'm down to make that compromise.
I've been back in school for a little while now. Started back in the Spring of 2015 and I'm studying Entertainment Engineering & Design. It's a totally different major than anything I had dabbled in before I dropped out, so I have a ton of required classes still and a lot of my old classes don't count for shit. I have 37 classes (not credits, classes) left before I graduate so it'll be a while.
Uh, there was a girl I was talking to but then she tried getting back with her ex. This story is a lot more interesting when you realize that her ex is 1. a girl, and 2. my roommate.
I think that's about it? Not too much else going on in my life. Just completely uprooting everything and changing jobs and moving all at the same time.

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Posted 08 January 2016 - 03:36 AM

I miss yah too! <3

 

Also, what is Entertainment Engineering & Design? Like is it to come up with new games or fix gaming machines (slots, etc.)? I'm really curious.

 

And the whole quittin' the job thing, I did that a few months ago, half-way through my last semester. I thought it would help me focus on school because I wanted to finally get out of college. I was working at the local YMCA and that was great and all, but it wasn't what I wanted to do. I was working with kids like a teacher's assistant, but I want to get out there more as an advertiser, which is what I went to school for. I'm also broke as fuck, but you know, I'm making it through it somehow.

 

At the moment I'm currently jobless, still looking, still applying to basically ANYWHERE. I've also been applying out of Wisconsin because there are no real opportunities here for what I want to do or where I want to end up. I want to be in a bustling city, where I can showcase my creativity and whatnot. My dad wants me to move in with him, he lives in Mississippi, but I'm thinking of moving in with my sister, who still lives in Las Vegas. I've checked out a few of the casinos out there for their marketing and advertising jobs, but nothing really has happened yet so like how I am doing here where I currently am, I'm just applying to wherever.

 

Taking chances, hoping for the best, attempting to figure out what the hell I want. And I'm just doing whatever until I can come up with some kind of plan or enough money to even attempt to try anything. Oh, still with my girlfriend. She's sweet, but I think we're going downhill a bit in our relationship. We both know and feel that I'm holding her back, I told her if she were to move we would be fine long-distance, she doesn't believe it, there's a part of me who doesn't believe it either.

 

Ah yeah, forgot to mention, I bought a dog over summer too. He's a tiny little chihuahua-papillon mix who acts like a cat. He doesn't do very much but is the sweetest thing in the world. His name is Theodore, but I just call him Teddy.



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Posted 08 January 2016 - 03:38 AM

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First of all, I'm glad that you guys seem to have a life trajectory going up. At least, sort of. I hope that it keeps getting better.

 

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Sometimes I feel like this guy. I'm still in college right now, but I've been having a lot of financial issues and I'm having a lot of trouble determining what I want to do with my life, and a lot of classes that I am literally just taking for the credits. I'm not sure if I've really learned anything at all in the past year and a half. I feel really directionless and I know I need a job but honestly I get distracted from what I need to do 90% of the time, just playing video games. I don't know if it's just an excuse so I don't have to work at another place that I hate or if I'm just drawn into the imaginary world where I can pretend I'm someone with actual goals and identity. But at the end of the gif the guy gets the trash in the can and I think that's more or less how it's going to work out. I'm still young, and it's only natural to feel lost and confused.

 

Also I kinda want to write a book.


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Posted 08 January 2016 - 03:42 AM

I'm on medication now, and it's kinda helping. But it makes me wanna nap a lot and when I wank it can be difficult to get to a point of blowing my load. I'm more upbeat and less anxious though. ...Maybe not enough. Might need to up the dosage. I'm on 20 mg/day Celexa.


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Posted 08 January 2016 - 08:41 AM

I miss yah too! <3
 
Also, what is Entertainment Engineering & Design? Like is it to come up with new games or fix gaming machines (slots, etc.)? I'm really curious.
 
And the whole quittin' the job thing, I did that a few months ago, half-way through my last semester. I thought it would help me focus on school because I wanted to finally get out of college. I was working at the local YMCA and that was great and all, but it wasn't what I wanted to do. I was working with kids like a teacher's assistant, but I want to get out there more as an advertiser, which is what I went to school for. I'm also broke as fuck, but you know, I'm making it through it somehow.
 
At the moment I'm currently jobless, still looking, still applying to basically ANYWHERE. I've also been applying out of Wisconsin because there are no real opportunities here for what I want to do or where I want to end up. I want to be in a bustling city, where I can showcase my creativity and whatnot. My dad wants me to move in with him, he lives in Mississippi, but I'm thinking of moving in with my sister, who still lives in Las Vegas. I've checked out a few of the casinos out there for their marketing and advertising jobs, but nothing really has happened yet so like how I am doing here where I currently am, I'm just applying to wherever.
 
Taking chances, hoping for the best, attempting to figure out what the hell I want. And I'm just doing whatever until I can come up with some kind of plan or enough money to even attempt to try anything. Oh, still with my girlfriend. She's sweet, but I think we're going downhill a bit in our relationship. We both know and feel that I'm holding her back, I told her if she were to move we would be fine long-distance, she doesn't believe it, there's a part of me who doesn't believe it either.
 
Ah yeah, forgot to mention, I bought a dog over summer too. He's a tiny little chihuahua-papillon mix who acts like a cat. He doesn't do very much but is the sweetest thing in the world. His name is Theodore, but I just call him Teddy.
COME BACK TO VEGAS SO WE CAN BE IRL FRIENDS :D

Entertainment Engineering & Design is like, stagehand work. Like lighting and rigging and audio and shit for like, productions and plays and concerts and conventions. We're constantly having guest speakers from Cirque Du Soliel come in, and going on backstage tours of different shows. It's hella tight.

I'm also hoping that I get to live the luxurious unemployment life for my last week of winter break. I have to go into my new job to sign new hire paperwork on Monday, but I'm hoping I don't have to actually work until at least a few days later. Because I'm lazy and because I need a break.

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Posted 08 January 2016 - 09:16 AM

I graduated as a Doctor last year, starting work as an Intern next week in fact. Still have no idea what field I want to specialise in, but with the way it works in Australia, I can't get onto a training program for at least a couple of years, so I still have time to make the decision.

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Posted 08 January 2016 - 05:13 PM

COME BACK TO VEGAS SO WE CAN BE IRL FRIENDS :D

Entertainment Engineering & Design is like, stagehand work. Like lighting and rigging and audio and shit for like, productions and plays and concerts and conventions. We're constantly having guest speakers from Cirque Du Soliel come in, and going on backstage tours of different shows. It's hella tight.

I'm also hoping that I get to live the luxurious unemployment life for my last week of winter break. I have to go into my new job to sign new hire paperwork on Monday, but I'm hoping I don't have to actually work until at least a few days later. Because I'm lazy and because I need a break.

 

That actually sounds like a load of fun, your major. And you get to have sweet speakers? Geez, maybe I should have done something else! xD

 

And I haaaaaate new hire paperwork. That stuff is a drag, and also working on the exact same day that you do the paperwork too... I'm lazy too and I should probably just find a job more than anything. T_T

 

 

I graduated as a Doctor last year, starting work as an Intern next week in fact. Still have no idea what field I want to specialise in, but with the way it works in Australia, I can't get onto a training program for at least a couple of years, so I still have time to make the decision.

otherwise, not much happenin.

 

Congrats on graduating then Dave! Hopefully work and life as an Intern is just as fun! I feel as if I were to have wanted to become a doctor I'd want to work with kids, peds and all. But those physical sciences man, they eat me up.



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Posted 09 January 2016 - 06:20 PM

Hey, I graduate next semester, man. Maybe we're about the same age.
And I haaaaaate new hire paperwork. That stuff is a drag, and also working on the exact same day that you do the paperwork too...
Yeah, I'm in the middle of doing this for a sysadmin job I have lined up, and it's enough of a pain while not working there.

Also, dude, Dave's a doctor? That's awesome.

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Posted 09 January 2016 - 08:19 PM

Man, at least you're free from school. I still have a good two more years to finish my degree in Software Systems Engineering, thanks to that first year of Fine Arts I had my heart set on at the time. Ever since entering university, I got a bit more jaded and cynical, but I think that's a good thing. I was terribly optimistic back then, but yeah. From pre-architecture/fine arts to software engineering, I took a mighty big leap. I still feel like a loser since the workload can get overwhelming at times, and I knit/crochet/bake/game my worries away in some form of escape. This semester's supposedly my hardest with a full load of courses, each with its own 3-hour lab to further occupy my schedule.

 

I got a boyfriend now. He's my first (not counting Sword_Demon, because that wasn't actually a thing that lasted), and thankfully he's not a douchebag. He actually cares for me, which is a nice feeling. We've been together for two years so far, but recently we got into a long-distance thing ever since he moved universities. He's a good guy who loves playing the silly joker/wildcard persona, plus he's always encouraging me to do things I like, such as writing. He's also following his dreams to become a game designer, which I toats respect; I'm just in engineering for some versatility and (hopefully) some financial security. We have plans to make games together, which is optimistic, but not bad to dream of.

 

Starting to hate my small city day by day. Trying to find an internship out of the province next year, not just for the experience, pay, and change of scenery, but also because I'd much rather graduate with the people in my year, and not the ones a year above me.


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Posted 09 January 2016 - 11:42 PM

Don't get too jaded. That's one of my problems. Definitely follow your dream. Don't fall into the trap of doing "what you need to do" from a financial perspective. What you NEED to have is happiness. Find what you can do to get what you need and still be happy - everything else is just fulfilling someone else's needs. Neither you nor I nor anyone else knows what comes after this, so don't waste it being a cog in someone else's machine.


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Posted 11 January 2016 - 02:21 AM

- Working on BSc

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- Trying to get better at Melee

- Slaving away at McDick's

- Trying to have fun whenever I can


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Posted 11 January 2016 - 03:43 AM

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basically that, but replace McDicks with Burger Dick, and melee with league.

 

also trying to find money for college. found a decent way to go, but it's still $1500 which while cheap in comparison to other options is still a butload of money.


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Posted 11 January 2016 - 07:03 AM

- No sex life
- Trying to get better at Melee
Literally my whole life story right here. Spent my whole morning watching Youtube videos trying to learn the Sheik vs Marth combo game, and that doesn't get you laid.

Bonus: After watching tons of top level Sheik vs Marth matches I'm starting to get convinced that Sheik loses that matchup and Marth players just whine so much about it that everyone assumes it's Sheik favored.

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Posted 11 January 2016 - 01:22 PM

Sheik has needles but Marth has disjointed hitboxes so it's sorta like Falco vs Marth (which is even) except Falco dies easier. So in that sense it's Marth favoured? idk lol
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An innocent "how are you guys doing" really turned into an outpouring of our souls here didn't it.

 

Best of luck with all those changes and jazz, Krev.

 

Grats on being a doctor, Dave.

 

Good luck with schooI, Lune. And Like Yosh said, do something for you, not just in the name of stability.

 

 

So, I worked at a Building Supplies outlet for three years and was promised a management position if I stayed, but ended up leaving to pursue a Bachelor in Theology. That really sent me reeling for the first year or so. Ended up having to do online courses because I couldn't afford to go out of province to actually attend the campus, so I'm stuck here living with my parents. I appreciate them a whole lot because they ask nothing from me, but I still don't like the feeling of being a dependant at 23. Got a 4.0 in my first semester, then failed a course and barely scraped out a C in the other courses, which was a morale blow. On the upside, grades were posted just this morning actually, and I managed to get my credit in the course I previously failed, so that's nice.

 

Working summers at the aforementioned Building Supplies store, but it gets harder to go back every year, because I'm doing internship style courses while I'm in school where I actually get to do what I want to do full-time. Can't complain too much though, I am getting 40+ hours/week at above minimum wage. I've only needed student loans for my winter semesters, I can save enough working to pay for my fall semesters.

 

I always dreamt that once I became an "adult" that relationships would get easier, but that has proven to be very wrong. There's this girl who I can honestly say is the best friend I've ever had, and it seems pretty obvious we're into each other. But, there are so many things that clash, and not just silly trivial things. Stuff like money priorities, places we wanna live, etc. It makes it near impossible to picture a relationship lasting, and I can't lose the friendship, so I'm deadlocked. She's also considering University this fall, but doesn't know if she wants to do online or go out-of-province. I don't want the introduction of a relationship to change what she decides, she needs to do what's best for her.

 

I've also got an impending diagnosis for depression (at least I'm told that's what it is) which is a totally scary idea, but not entirely surprising given my history.

 

This all seems really whiny and negative, but that's just me being naturally pessimistic. Things have actually been going really well lately, I'm finally in school doing what I want, the new guy I'm doing my internship stuff with this year has turned into one of my best friends and has really been supportive, and my sister had a daughter. I can honestly say that nothing has made me happier in the last few years than holding that baby.

 

All in all, things are good Damon, thanks for asking.


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Ostensibly things are going pretty well but there's some regrets I can't get over.

 

While studying overseas a couple of years ago I met a girl that I liked but who only liked me as a friend. I also messed up pretty much everything else I tried to do that year. When I came home the next half year was terrible. I've been trying to forget it since then but I still curse at myself and think about her every day. Whenever I get an email from her I feel high but it hurts because she probably barely thinks about me at all.

 

People say that studying overseas is a good experience and you'll learn a lot about yourself but I ended up hollow and dejected and less confident. Perhaps I'm a little more determined but mostly in a resigned sort of way. I got a boost in "The Game of Life" (sigh) because I ended up working full time at a finance company, but only because the pay is good. The work is more frustrating than interesting. I made a deal with myself that I'd slog through it and play video games the rest of the time and let everything else slide. It's going ok but I can't imagine taking orders 9-5 and living in a tiny house with 2 other people and their 3 pets for much longer.

 

Perhaps this seems spoiled to anyone who is struggling financially. I don't know. Maybe when you're a student, studying is the "real life" where you have freedom and originality and creativity and outside work is just a means to an end. You can keep that rolling into full time work if you have a "real life" outside, typically with a partner and raising a family. But if work is all you have and it isn't your "life's work", then it gets hard. Professionally I'm making fine progress, but personally I'm stuck in a ditch.

 

There's some hope though. I had surgery last year which solved a chronic sleep problem and should increase my power level substantially, I'll be coming to the US later this year. Hint it's a state where weed is legal.

 

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